musings and whatnots

i want to run away.

i just want to get away from HERE, and leave everything be. i just want to go where my feet takes me, wherever that place is. and i just want to know who would be there when i'll end up on someone's doorstep. or who'll sit with me on an empty park bench and talk to me like we were long lost friends. maybe that way, i'll really know. and i'll really understand myself better. i'll have the guts to admit to myself what i want, and i don't have to deny anymore. because i'm always fooling myself. and i guess, it's easier that way. and i really want to look for me. but that's the one place i really don't want to look. i just don't want to face the truth, because i know when i do, there'll be no turning back.

oh, hello sunshine.