"First they put away the dealers, then they put away the prostitutes, then they shoot away the bums and beat & bash the queers. They turned away the asylum seekers, fed us suspicions and fears, we didnt raise our voice, we didnt make a fuss; its funny, there was no one left to notice when they came for us." ~NOFX

Words from someone who knows what he's writing

“There are only two worlds – your world, which is the real world, and other worlds, the fantasy. Worlds like this are worlds of the human imagination: their reality, or lack of reality, is not important. What is important is that they are there. these worlds provide an alternative. Provide an escape. Provide a threat. Provide a dream, and power; provide refuge, and pain. They give your world meaning. They do not exist; and thus they are all that matters.” ~Neil Gaiman, The Books of Magic

quote time!

"Music is a total constant. That’s why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in your or the world, that one song says the same, just like that moment." ~Sarah Dessen

"It’s not so much that we’re afraid of change or so in love with the old ways, but it’s that place in between that we fear. It’s like being between trapezes. It’s Linus when his blanket is in the dryer. There’s nothing to hold on to." ~Marilyn Ferguson

"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant, filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like." ~Lemony Snicket

'Your reason and your passion are the rudder.. and the sails of your seafaring soul. If either be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas. For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burn to it’s own destruction.'

-Kahlil Gibran

maybe someday i would see you again and you'd look me in my eyes and call me your friend.

"believe nothing, no matter where you read it or who said it, not even if i have said it, unless it agrees with your own reason and your own common sense."

-buddha

"Let's face it ...we've changed. We've all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, We've all gone in our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships diminished, new love started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time in our own circle of friends, We no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. We've changed... some for the better, some for the worse. Some of us are finding love and others are trying to let go. Even though we've changed, we all know that even though we're all finding our own place in the world, that when we find love, when we let go of love, when the tears fall, or the happy smile spreads across our face,we'll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens, nothing will ever changed so much to the point that we're not all friends forever."

"they say that what doesn't kill you, only delays the inevitable."

will.edit.later.

"It's the loneliest feeling in the world

to find yourself standing up

when everyone else is sitting down.

To have everybody look at you and say,

"What's the matter with her?"

I know what it feels like.

Walking down an empty street,

listening to the sound of your own footsteps.

Shutters closed,

blinds drawn,

doors locked against you.

And you aren't sure whether you're walking toward something,

or if you're just walking away."

"...if you're always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, well you'll always find them, and I guess at some point you should let go and give your heart what it deserves." --Lucas; OTH.

june is ending pretty fast. the rain is coming down steady too [jacket madness. hallelujah.]. it's really ironic. it seems as if there isn't enough time. that there should be more seconds in a minute, and more minutes in an hour, and more hours in a day. but there is more than enough time; and i think that people waste it more than they think they do. they let chances go and they watch people they care about leave with it. i know my fair share of that, and i don't want it to happen ever again.

hmm. anyone with a crash course in time management? pasali naman oh.

if you're looking for reasons
not to love someone, you're
probably going to find them
but sometimes, we need to
give in & let our hearts get
what they deserve

the important thing is not to be bitter over lifes disappointments. learn to let go of the past & recognize that everyday wont be sunny. & when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember its only in the black of night that you see the stars. & those stars see you back home. so dont be afraid to make mistakes to stumble & fall, because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. maybe you'll get more then you could have ever imagined. who knows where life will take you. the road is long, & in the end, the journey is the destination


remember when getting high meant at
a playground && the worst thing you
could get from boys we're cooties
when mom was your hero and dad
was the boy you were gonna marry.
when your worst enemies we're your
siblings && race issues we're about
who ran the fastest, when war was
a card game and life was simple &&
care free remember when all you
wanted to do was just grow up & now
that we are grown up the thing we
miss the most was being little kids

i know, i know. i'm a sucker for quotes. <3

i knew who i was this morning, but i've changed a couple of times since then.

-alice in wonderland

yes, things have definitely changed. i cannot make myself believe that i survived last year with all the drama i had to put up with. yes, i made myself vulnerable and foolish because of that. but the funny thing is, people learn because they get sick and tired with the same mistakes they usually do. i know i did. i guess this is the part where i realize that i am not being too reckless anymore. but we'll never know, right? life always finds a way to make you believe things you won't even think of believing.

"You ever wake up from a really good dream, try to get back to sleep? Or you got the flu, and you promise yourself that you'll appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? That's the way I feel. I just want things to go back to the way they were.."--oth

..and that's the same thing i feel right now. so much so.

i won't always love what i'll never have. i won't always live in my regrets.

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours." -- Ayn Rand, "Atlas Shrugged"

xoxo

i can't take it. i failed to abstain on chocolates. it's my drug-free prozac. HAHA. oh well. i sketched and soundtripped the day away. it's amazing what someone can do with free time and a brooding artistic mind. it wasn't long before my room became a lilttle museum of my heart. books here and there. cds stashed neatly in my closet. photographs and art; not just of people but of places and things that remind me of what life is all about. words and phrases--lots of them--displayed on the walls and mirrors. most of them were questions. in a funny way they became the answers too.

now all i have to do is keep people away from my room. it's too blunt to be seen by anyone especially my parents. seriously. it's sad that way but that's life. that's what teenagers like me usually do. oh don't tell me i'm wrong. haha.

Time takes it all. Whether you want it to or not, time takes it all away, time bares it away. And in the end, there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.

-Stephen King

it's not a bad day. not really. thanks to my best friend who gave me a monkey [tarsier jr.!] and the tindera who gave me the green balloon. i'm just so glad this day is over. and now i can move on with my life. yay me.