elton: but never in your life, you never had a boyfriend?
me: no.
me: pseudo.
me: it really, really, sucks that way.
me: that your first everything got taken by someone who's like, anonymous.

yes. it is sad. and pathetic. and foolish. maybe i'll die before i get beyond the single status. haha! okay. okay. i'm typing crap. i just want to be a million miles away from here now. sigh. i need a real vacay.

i don't know when, or where, or how, but i'm very much sure i lost myself someplace.

mhm. /edit.

so long sweet summer. ♥

days ago, i used to imagine how'd it be like with summer class finally over. and now that i'm two days in official vacation, i still don't know what to really make of anything. maybe it's 'cause of the lack of sleep, or the alcohol, or realizations, or 'cause of the finals, or the outing, or maybe i'm just plain clueless. oh pfht. whatever.

my friends and i went to the batch outing last monday. we were very few. but i'm just as thankful it happened that way. it was crazy. it was what i didn't expect and did expect [miss contradiction, much?]. that's over now, but it was fun while it lasted.

i apologize for the incoherence. i guess this is what two weeks of non-stop physics and lab would do to somebody who never had to cram up chapters of math and science in a short span of time. i'll prolly update pretty soon.

life is under no obligation to give you what you expect.

wohoo. second exam finished. thankyoulord. i mean, i know i did better this time. that's enough consolation for me right now. tomorrow's the make up for the first exam i failed. i need--not want to take it. but i feel better. i want this feeling to last 'til the end of summer classes.

my head's been drifting a lot lately. you know, i sit for a while and realize that after twenty minutes that's still what i'm doing. absence seizure. as my sister puts it. she's practicing nursing terms on me. but anyway, it's not that big of a problem. i've been having that seizure since godknowswhen.

oh i miss my friends.♥

this blog has terribly been stagnant.

oh crap. pressure and stress are getting the better of me. did i mention i failed the first exam in phyeng? and my phylab exam got intertwined with my aftershock at that time too. ghreat really. like, hell. but i just laughed it off. i mean, what else could you do anyway? other than studying seriously and learning from past [and not to mention stupid] mistakes [like not underestimating or cursing the questionnaire ], NONE.

go me! go me! go me!

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fact: baristas are downright flirty human beings.