i just had one of the bestest breakfast after a loooong time. Shang serves the bestest buffet, especially in Cebu. after taking a swim and staying in the sauna and jacuzzi [we were being boiled--literally], it was just fitting to EAT. too bad they didn't serve the chocolate fountain there.

ah. nostalgia.

i can't wait to cut my hair. weee. maybe i could dress like a boy and make girls fall for me. *wink wink*

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i don't know any card games, except the one-two-three-pass my co-officers and i used to play inside the hq. but i do know how to predict. from what my friends say and from the awry faces they give me when i interpret the cards[solitaire only people, i'm not that rich], i've actually given thought of joining the gypsies or something. kidding. but seriously, some are freakingly accurate, like that time in querico when my friend started laughing and saying profanitites tugging at his friend to try as well. or yesterday, and the day after that that i myself was surprised because i know first hand their dilemma to begin with. thing is, i don't want to believe in the interpretations. i don't want to believe a bunch of cards could tell me my life, or others' life for that matter. i just do it for fun. no more, no less. but there's nothing like that, right? 'cause sometimes you believe even though you've programmed your mind and heart not to. there's that annoying voice bringing you to conclusions and assumptions--in short, gibberish. this is why i don't interpret for myself for no reason. so, after my friends nagged me for what seemed like forever, i gave in. and PSH. it's just, whatever.

my sister's graduating today. since i can't go 'cause there's only admission for two, i had to ask my parents to call me when it's my sister's turn to be called up to the stage. that way, it would be like i'm there in a line-to-line kind of way. nice, ne?

after that, we'll all be heading to the hotel. i need some serious break. plus some shopping money, that's just the thing to prep me up. hurrah.

for elton:

a. "losing my reason for the journey" would be my greatest fear. kinda what i felt last year and last last year. i think i already told you about that anyway.
b. boys with guitars! kidding. i don't know. seriously, i thought the guys i'd fall for would always have that kind of appeal. but, nooooo. life's full of surprises that way.
c. i would get lucas [not chad murray]. he's like, to-die-for. the other nine? adam brody, chris carrabba, ryan phillippe, lestat [character from anne rice's vampire chronicles], stephan [another character from anne rice's, violin], brandon flowers, johnny depp [how could i ever forget??], jude law, and all my other crushes. the list's too long soooo. there.
d. to rule the world. *evil laugh*
e. i'll either sketch, or soundtrip, or write, or sleep. anything that keeps me busy. i'll even clean my room if i have to.

for wey:

a. no, i'm not mad. i don't think i ever get mad except, well, you know. you're just drifting away. and you're pushing people away too.
b. there's this thing call non-exclusivity. and that's all i have to say. haha.
c. of course! there's always time for friends. especially bestfriends.
d. it's been bittersweet--the usual.
e. you're my bestfriend. need i say more?

to the one who lent me the from autumn to ashes cd:

a. it's human nature. the one thing that keeps us desiring for more than the hurt is what we all want. and what we all strive for to get.
b. they're either stubborn or playing blind. either way, it's our principles and how we view things from our own perspective that keeps us from falling out of sanity. so it's not much of a surprise why people choose to be apathetic.
c. know the quote, "my smile is the best lie i've got"? let's face it, everysingleone of us have our own bouts of loneliness and insecurities, even depression. we all pretend to a certain extent. love can just be another way of filling the empty void we've had. but that isn't love, is it? the people who do such never will be contented no matter what they do.
d. nostalgia. i think that would explain much of what i intended to type.
e. there's no replacement to a hurt done in the past. it's not even advisable to seek happiness only to cover the hurt away. best thing to do? accept and just be thankful. why use your happiness now as pogo stick to poke at your past year's hurt? the damage's been done. it's over. it's so last year. why live with it until now?

for beli:

a. text me your schedule and i'll prolly arrange mine too.
b. for the simple reason that people complicate things. someone became my living reminder of that.
c. aside from the fact that coffee has numerous benefits [care to read my second major essay?], i don't like beer. but i do like vodka.:)
d. ever try comparing dreams to a movie trailer? trailers give a brief retrospective of what is in the movie. same goes with dreaming. it gives you something to hold on to while you're pursuing that goal.
e. to KNOW our purpose for living.

i'll give the credits to chez for introducing me to this sortakindalike tag thing. it's fun. and intruiging too.

so here: you're gonna ask me five questions. anything goes. just don't ask me f*cked up questions 'cause i might just track you down and shoot you. send it to my email 'cause i don't have a comment page here and the tagboard's downright small for that. in exchange, you have to tell me five things you cannot live without--give the reason why as well. remember: things!!! please don't give me food/water/yournamehere. also, leave a note if you want it privately answered or not. i might just post it here or send it to you by email.

e-add: bubblegum_1320@yahoo.com

to cuyeg:

a. it's just unnerving to have to pick five people when you care about more than just that number. so, (1) God [if He is considered a human being],(2) parents, (3)siblings,(4) friends, and (5)me. no, i'm not being conceited. it's just that sometimes, people don't leave others behind except their own selves. and it's what i'm trying hard not to do.
b. didn't i tell you? you're pretty. HAHA.
c. how? i don't know. for the only reason that i do not know who i'll end up with.
d. i hate failures. be it grades or other things.
e. what makes my day differ from what i need from that day per se. but a not so merciless circumstance would do just fine. then again maybe i just need a cup of coffee or something.:)