musings and whatnots

i just had a girl to girl talk after the longest time.

and i just noticed how dull and crappy my life had been. that i am so different from this girl who appears to have everything [but i know that there's no such thing]. i do not have a healthy relationship with my parents. and i have not been keeping up with my friends from highschool. pardon me, but anyone would find it hard given that you have at least 30++ people for a barkada. and that's just one group of people i hang out with--i have three, for chrissakes. my heart's sinking with every thought of how far away everyone is now. i guess i just didn't want to see it all that way.

oh sigh. you really can't have it all, anyway.