"You ever wake up from a really good dream, try to get back to sleep? Or you got the flu, and you promise yourself that you'll appreciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? That's the way I feel. I just want things to go back to the way they were.."--oth

..and that's the same thing i feel right now. so much so.

Realization: the three-hours sleep didn't give me anything, except a runny nose which accounted for me being sick a few days ago. given the fact that the doctor said i have lots of bacteria than an average person[heeey, i was in elementary. kids with bacteria were the thing back then.], the last time i considered myself sick was in third year. no, i don't like cramming. but desperation pushes even the most indolent person to get up out of the couch and into the toilet. as for me, i'm just waiting for the words to come at one-something in the morning.

and ghreat, i have a sore throat now.

xoxo

yeah, i know. "it's been a tough year on hearts". people have been drinking and smoking too much lately. some are saying less, others a lot more. suddenly it feels like high school again--minus the trisem the finals and the whole college thing. "When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone" now. maybe the world just needs to show a little more drama this month--well, make that week. as for me, i'm just hoping i'll get the words out right, soon. then i'm done.

okay. peoplearepeople top + vmvhypoallergenics lipstick + colorstone starfish necklace + mimi bronzer = empty wallet & contentment. you know what? maybe when i grow up, i'll make a study about why shopping is a cure for bouts of depression and major anxiety attacks. i might just win the nobel prize. hahaha.

still in writer's block flu. sigh.

i so want to go to Hed Kandi with my sister. and i need to furnish my escaping ability too--if i still have one, that is.

i don't feel the passion to write anymore.

..and that's scary.

is this just a phase?

One Tree Hill is looooooooooove. the soundtrack is just as loveleeeeeeee.

i miss the feeling of white sand under my toes. i miss the music the waves make when they hit the shore. i miss the smell of fresh crisp sea, the sparkle they make against the sun. i miss watching the sunset alone even if i look like a loser in doing so. i miss the heat. i miss boy-watching. tee-hee.

i wish i could get away for the summer.

take me with you.